Process

So I went to aquire the fire...how many blogs/myspaces have I read with that intro? A lot. Hmmm that's the thing- a lot of people went...just last weekend, in Portland. I'm sure they're going to cram a lot more people into...bigger cities! That's amazing. What's even more amazing is how surprised I was at how many people I know from my school who went. I didn't even know they knew of God (which is impossible, I know) let alone would want to go to AtF... that also put things into perspective for me...were the people I were surprised who went, surprised that I went? I hope not...but then that ties into my possibly biggest concern/insecurity - People not seeing Jesus Christ through me. Hmmm...

Good weekend tho- it focused on something I've been focusing on myself- Being Real. To God, to my friends, to my family...to myself. Like in the book I'm reading, I have the mindset of, "if I'm not true to myself, what makes you think I'm true to you?" ... that worries me. I don't think I'm that severe- but who knows, maybe I am. I know how I feel and what I think- but I don't let others know, including God... I mean, he knows- but I don't tell him...which I think is important. Something I seriously need to work on- and who knows, maybe I'll be working on that for the rest of my life. I hope not though...